Finding my worth and/or knowing my value… which is it?

Let me explain…

In my relationships whether personal or professional, I always find the need to overextend myself to keep people around… Why??

There’s always been this part of me that always thinks I’m not enough – FOR ANYTHING.

So I’ll settle for the bare minimum (scraps, really) while I go over the top to keep people, places or things in my life.

How do I stop this?

I really don’t have a clue or else I wouldn’t be writing this today but I am starting to identify some of my own imperfections that leads me down that path every time and I’m (trying to) minimize or fix them… progress not perfection, right??

That must count for something.

I’ve been shown recently that I’m more than enough from some special people in my life, I mean even when I didn’t have shit to offer them – they still just wanted to be in my orbit just because I’m me… ME!!

Period!!

I’m grateful for that.

I mean I’m more than grateful however I need to work on knowing my worth all by myself.

I’m not going to stop surrounding myself with people who make me feel worthy mind you, I just need to know when to let go of the ones that don’t without feeling like I have something to prove.

That’s the tricky part… I’m not even placing blame on anyone for it either.

I know there’s more than a few out there who will take advantage from the jump but in the flip side there’s also some that I feel weren’t initially set up like that but because of my own persistence (when I’m just doin’ too much) they just ran with it.

I ain’t even mad at ‘em.

Instead I choose to be vigilant going forward about who enters my circle and gets to stay.

Plus as an added bonus if there’s any conditions or strings attached, guess what?

I’ll just keep it movin’ because I’m learning my worth.